Well I thought i was feeling better today but apparently it was just a temporary state and my side effects have resumed. Funny though since i finished the chemo on 11/17 and last had the other drug on 11/23. I guess it’s still in there sloshing around causing trouble. My legs ache, i have no energy and havent gotten anything done all week.
So i have been doing a lot of thinking. I am sometimes too lazy to even want to write it all down at once so its dribs and drabs
Heres some things
1) my friends, family, and coworkers have been so awesome, visiting me, sending me gifts in the mail, bringing me food and commenting on my facebook posts. One night last week I was “in a mood” and kind of chastised one of my friends who isnt usually on FB.
We use messenger to chat.
I told them ( yes i will use non gender specific “them”) that i wish they did since that is how I mostly update everyone on how I’m doing- and oddly, they seem to like it. I know this person is busy but i like to think they are part of “team phyllis”. However, you know me- I read WAY too much into things and i’m a bit codependent. As in “are you mad at me? Did I do domething to offend you??”
this week, ten days past last infusion for Herceptin- my legs have been achy for days, i have been tired and spent most days lying in bed, except for going to a pre j appt for some blood work and an EKG. IT IS SICK-( no pun intended) the number of chronic conditions I have Its enough to just say kill me now, which I have considered on occassion
It is chanuka, and like all holidays, i am depressed AF as the kids say I know everyone has family
